Jay & Dani, Saturday evening
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xp_logsAfter Dani returns from her day out on Saturday, she goes to Jay's room to smack some sense into him. He even listens.
"Open the door, Jay," Danielle demanded, as she banged on his door, not bothering with social pleasantries like asking permission or if he was even in.
"S'unlocked," he called, "Open it yourself." Jay sighed. This would not be any good. He'd calmed considerably after talking to Mr. Summers, but he knew that Dani had words to say. She always had words.
Coming in she stood at the foot of his bed, glaring down at him as he lay on his bed. Suddenly, all the possible openings she had rehearsed in her head disappeared and she just stood there unsure what to say, her mouth open like a fish. Closing it, she sighed and sat down on his desk chair.
"So? What'll it be first?" he asked curtly. "Gonna tell me Ah'm retarded, or that Ah'm a hypocrite, or that Ah'm self-centered? C'mon, Ah don't think Ah've heard enough today."
All those had been on her list of possible openers, but none were what she wanted to say, really. "No," she said simply, still sitting there quietly. "I was going to say all that and more, but I think that was the empathy talking. 'Cause all I wanna do now is give you a hug." The punch in the nose she'd been thinking about earlier was another option she wasn't quite willing to forget though.
That was definitely not something he'd been expecting. "O-oh." But it was something he'd accept. "Do I look that pathetic?" he asked, bothered that he appeared to be so out of it that his mere appearance totally changed Dani's attitude.
"And more," she informed him truthfully. She'd been out of the school for most of the day, but she'd tried to play catchup on the journals a little before going to see him. "You may not want anyone's help and for now, I'm okay with that, but when you hurt, I hurt. And I don't mean my powers, I mean, I hate seeing you hurt. By this, by those bigots, by anyone. And I ain't the only one who cares. But you don't want anyone to care, so that makes it harder to deal with it for us...it ain't all about you sometimes."
"Ah'm sorry iffn Ah hurt you or the baby," he said sadly. "Ya know Ah'd never do nuthin' like that. S'just . . . mah sister ran away. It's the second time she'd abandoned m . . . home, as home as this madhouse is for her. S'like a twisty knife in the chest, y'know? And it ain't that Ah don't want no one ta care, Ah just don't want their care shoved down mah throat."
"Then what are we supposed to do? Not care that our friend is hurting? SOG wasn't some intervention or to gossip behind anyone’s back! It was a group of people who feel helpless that their friends were hurting. It was a way of saying, 'you're not alone' to each other, not about you!" Dani informed him, getting louder as she got angrier. "I'm not saying you shouldn't hurt or that you shouldn't be mad at Paige, I would be! But blaming people who never did nothing but care ain't right."
"That's the problem! What right do you have ta be hurt at mah expense and ta have ta band together ta deal with it?" he demanded, stifling his anger as much as he could so as to not make Dani go any crazier. "'You're not alone' mah ass. Ya have ta help each other because Paige and Ah are so difficult? Dani, Ah ain't seein' where this ain't a support group or somethin' like it."
"I don't know Sam and I barely know Paige, but I know you. And you basically shut down after you got beat up. You didn't do nothing but lay here and maybe go to classes. I tried to talk to you, just say 'hi' you act like I got cooties or something! Yeah, I'm worried. I ain't saying you gotta pour your heart out, but yeah, thinking you hated me or worse for reasons I didn't even know about IS that difficult! What was I supposed to think, that everything was fine? Forge said you were fine, but then, if you were okay, why couldn't you even be a little nice!" Somewhere in that she had started crying, not from Jay's emotions, but the stress and hormones. She had been prone to crying for a while now.
"If you got beat up for bein' a fag then you'd be the same way too!" Jay blurted out. "Fuck." Didn't mean to say that.
"So now a pregnant GIRL is a threat?" Dani stood, wiping her eyes and glaring again, "I'd hate for you to feel threatened by me, so I'll just go."
Jay jumped up and intercepted Dani before she got to the door. "Wait, Ah didn't mean that. Ah ain't threatened by ya or nuthin'. Ah just needed time alone, 'kay? Ah got what little support Ah wanted, but mostly Ah just wanted ta be left alone. Seriously, is that such a crime?"
Sighing, Dani turned to look at him, tired. "I wasn't trying to help or support or anything. I was just trying to say 'hi'. Maybe find your favorite foods to make you a homecooked meal - I know you were sneaking down for food at night. Having friends means you ain't gotta be alone."
"It means Ah don't gotta be when Ah don't wanna be. But if Ah do wanna be, than y'all should respect mah wish and not intrude."
"And I did," she said pointedly, crossing her arms over her chest. "Saying 'hi' in the halls between classes ain't exactly intruding. It's polite."
Jay sighed and hit the door behind him with his head. "What'm Ah supposed t'say? Ah'm sorry, alright? Ah just . . . politeness ain't exactly mah thing when Ah'm in that kinda mood."
"You should always be polite," Dani refrained from asking if his mother had ever told him that, knowing it would not be a good thing to say. "Especially when you don't want to be. So what you want me to cook you?"
"Open the door, Jay," Danielle demanded, as she banged on his door, not bothering with social pleasantries like asking permission or if he was even in.
"S'unlocked," he called, "Open it yourself." Jay sighed. This would not be any good. He'd calmed considerably after talking to Mr. Summers, but he knew that Dani had words to say. She always had words.
Coming in she stood at the foot of his bed, glaring down at him as he lay on his bed. Suddenly, all the possible openings she had rehearsed in her head disappeared and she just stood there unsure what to say, her mouth open like a fish. Closing it, she sighed and sat down on his desk chair.
"So? What'll it be first?" he asked curtly. "Gonna tell me Ah'm retarded, or that Ah'm a hypocrite, or that Ah'm self-centered? C'mon, Ah don't think Ah've heard enough today."
All those had been on her list of possible openers, but none were what she wanted to say, really. "No," she said simply, still sitting there quietly. "I was going to say all that and more, but I think that was the empathy talking. 'Cause all I wanna do now is give you a hug." The punch in the nose she'd been thinking about earlier was another option she wasn't quite willing to forget though.
That was definitely not something he'd been expecting. "O-oh." But it was something he'd accept. "Do I look that pathetic?" he asked, bothered that he appeared to be so out of it that his mere appearance totally changed Dani's attitude.
"And more," she informed him truthfully. She'd been out of the school for most of the day, but she'd tried to play catchup on the journals a little before going to see him. "You may not want anyone's help and for now, I'm okay with that, but when you hurt, I hurt. And I don't mean my powers, I mean, I hate seeing you hurt. By this, by those bigots, by anyone. And I ain't the only one who cares. But you don't want anyone to care, so that makes it harder to deal with it for us...it ain't all about you sometimes."
"Ah'm sorry iffn Ah hurt you or the baby," he said sadly. "Ya know Ah'd never do nuthin' like that. S'just . . . mah sister ran away. It's the second time she'd abandoned m . . . home, as home as this madhouse is for her. S'like a twisty knife in the chest, y'know? And it ain't that Ah don't want no one ta care, Ah just don't want their care shoved down mah throat."
"Then what are we supposed to do? Not care that our friend is hurting? SOG wasn't some intervention or to gossip behind anyone’s back! It was a group of people who feel helpless that their friends were hurting. It was a way of saying, 'you're not alone' to each other, not about you!" Dani informed him, getting louder as she got angrier. "I'm not saying you shouldn't hurt or that you shouldn't be mad at Paige, I would be! But blaming people who never did nothing but care ain't right."
"That's the problem! What right do you have ta be hurt at mah expense and ta have ta band together ta deal with it?" he demanded, stifling his anger as much as he could so as to not make Dani go any crazier. "'You're not alone' mah ass. Ya have ta help each other because Paige and Ah are so difficult? Dani, Ah ain't seein' where this ain't a support group or somethin' like it."
"I don't know Sam and I barely know Paige, but I know you. And you basically shut down after you got beat up. You didn't do nothing but lay here and maybe go to classes. I tried to talk to you, just say 'hi' you act like I got cooties or something! Yeah, I'm worried. I ain't saying you gotta pour your heart out, but yeah, thinking you hated me or worse for reasons I didn't even know about IS that difficult! What was I supposed to think, that everything was fine? Forge said you were fine, but then, if you were okay, why couldn't you even be a little nice!" Somewhere in that she had started crying, not from Jay's emotions, but the stress and hormones. She had been prone to crying for a while now.
"If you got beat up for bein' a fag then you'd be the same way too!" Jay blurted out. "Fuck." Didn't mean to say that.
"So now a pregnant GIRL is a threat?" Dani stood, wiping her eyes and glaring again, "I'd hate for you to feel threatened by me, so I'll just go."
Jay jumped up and intercepted Dani before she got to the door. "Wait, Ah didn't mean that. Ah ain't threatened by ya or nuthin'. Ah just needed time alone, 'kay? Ah got what little support Ah wanted, but mostly Ah just wanted ta be left alone. Seriously, is that such a crime?"
Sighing, Dani turned to look at him, tired. "I wasn't trying to help or support or anything. I was just trying to say 'hi'. Maybe find your favorite foods to make you a homecooked meal - I know you were sneaking down for food at night. Having friends means you ain't gotta be alone."
"It means Ah don't gotta be when Ah don't wanna be. But if Ah do wanna be, than y'all should respect mah wish and not intrude."
"And I did," she said pointedly, crossing her arms over her chest. "Saying 'hi' in the halls between classes ain't exactly intruding. It's polite."
Jay sighed and hit the door behind him with his head. "What'm Ah supposed t'say? Ah'm sorry, alright? Ah just . . . politeness ain't exactly mah thing when Ah'm in that kinda mood."
"You should always be polite," Dani refrained from asking if his mother had ever told him that, knowing it would not be a good thing to say. "Especially when you don't want to be. So what you want me to cook you?"
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