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xp_logsFollowing events at the club, Manuel suffers a crisis of conscience.
Manuel was sore, dazed, drained, and a little frightened as he turned the shower in his and Amanda's hotel room up to just-below-scalding. He couldn't seem to get his emotional footing, and only the dampener on his wrist let him keep any sort of handle on his own spinning mind. ~Jesus, what a night.~ he said to himself in Castillian as he peeled himself out of his mostly-destroyed suit. ~I didn't know I could _do_ that.~
Amanda was curled in a boneless heap on the bed, trying to work up the mental energy to either peel off her stained dress and boots so she could sleep properly, or do a healing spell to take care of the bruises and chafing that were making themselves felt. Or, failing that, stumbling into the shower once Manuel was done. "Fuck," she said aloud to the ceiling. It seemed to sum up the night.
"No thank you." he called out from the bathroom. "I don't think I"ll be able to for a good long while. That woman is an animal! Pure animal!" he said, with a grin at the things she did to him. "Join me?"
"Any other time I'd take that as an invite, but I'm too shagged t' even think of it." With a groan, Amanda rolled off the bed and stumbled into the bathroom, pausing only to toe off her already-loosened boots and pull her dress over her head. She'd been wearing underwear at the start of the night, but it had sort of gone missing at some stage. Joining Manuel in the large showerstall, she mustered a grin. "She is, ain't she? Definitely got you goin', I see. What the fuck was that?"
"I have no idea." he said, sliding under the fiery spray and hissing as the water hit tense muscles. "She unlocked me, and after that - it's all a blur. I just remember that I enjoyed it, a helluva lot more than I've enjoyed anything else I've done. And it seems that I mindlocked the entire club as well, judging by what I saw when I finally drove her over the edge she wanted from me."
"I'll say you did - it was a fuckin' orgy out there. I ain't never seen anythin' like it. Or felt it." To distract herself from the vague feelings of disquiet, Amanda grabbed the soap and ran it over Manuel's back. "It was... intense."
Manuel cooed in pleasure as Amanda washed his back. "Intense isn't the word. I have _never_ felt anything like that before. Nothing." Although he had his back to Amanda, the tilt of his shoulders and the choked sounds he made couldn't have been a good sign. "What have I done?"
"I... don't know. What was comin' down the link nearly blew me head off, an' then... " Amanda's hands faltered even as her words did, and she bowed her head under the spray, letting the water soothe her jangled nerves. She slipped her arms around Manuel's waist, hugging him gently. "It was an accident," she said at last.
"Domino asked for it. That I don't mind." he grinned weakly. "But the rest - I raped them. They had no choice, and I forced it onto them." He leaned forward, letting the scalding hot water run over his back. "Was it an accident?"
"It is if you couldn't help it, if you didn't know that would happen." Flipping her wet hair out of her face with her hand, she set to soaping herself, wincing as she hit sensitive patches. "It ain't like the love potion - I knew what that could do an' still did it."
"There's so much I don't know..." he muttered, as he let the water soak his hair. "I'm not sure I'm going to be able to go out with the Pack anymore." he said. "What if they hold me responsible? And what about the police?"
"I don't know... I ain't got any answers this time, Manny." She nudged him around to face her and ran her soapy hands over his chest, noting the scratches and other marks. The movement gave her time to think. "It wouldn't be the first time they've seen someone lose control of their powers, so I don't think they'd be after you. An' as for the police... No-one knew exactly what happened, so it's not like they'd be lookin' for you."
"What kind of a _monster_ does that to somebody?" he asked, voice close to breaking. "Apparently, I'm that kind of monster. How can they look me in the eye, knowing what I've done? How can _YOU_? Maybe I should turn myself in, go back to the aslyum..."
"You didn't _mean_ it!" she told him, dropping the soap and grabbing onto his arms. "You didn't go there tonight an' decide t' mindfuck a bunch of strangers for the fun of it. People lose control of their powers all the fuckin' time - half the bloody school has, for Christ's sake." It was hard to maintain her vehemence with water pouring down over the two of them, but she blinked it out of her eyes and met his. "You ain't a monster, Manny. Believe me, I'd fuckin' well know."
"No, I didn't mean it. I didn't want for that to happen. I got caught up in all the hate from Lien, and then Domino and her need, and she unlocked me, and then ... boom." he joked weakly, taking the soap from her hand to begin to clean himself off. "What is Lien's damage, anyway? Did I do something to her? She _hated_ me, Amanda. I don't understand. I'd never seen her before we came here. What did I do?"
"You were born with a dick," Amanda said bluntly, stepping back and letting the water rinse her off. "It weren't personal, she was probably feelin' the same thing 'bout the
Manuel ahhhed. "So that's what it was. Do you know what it's like, hating yourself from your own biology? Hating your gender? Thanks to Lien, I know what it's like." he said bitterly, rinsing his abused slender body off under the hot water.
"I was gettin' it from the link. I s'pose there's some people you just shouldn't be in the same room with." With a small groan as various aches and pains started making themselves more felt, Amanda stepped out of the shower and wrapped herself in one of the hotel's big fluffy white towels. "'M not sayin' I didn't enjoy that, but... ow."
"I enjoyed it highly as well. Domino is ... quite spirited, and she reacts even better than you do. It was amazing." he said, trying to dredge up some cheerfulness out of the bottom of his heart. "I'm gonna be in here for a little while - don't wait up. Tomorrow, we'll go see the rest of the sights." he said, returning himself to the scalding spray of the anemic hotel shower.
"Believe me, I weren't plannin' to," Amanda muttered, barely drying herself off before stumbling back into the bedroom and the inviting expanse of the bed. If she was picking up Manuel's emotional state from the link, she was too exhausted to care.
Manuel showered for a half-hour, trying to wash the stain of his crimes off of his body and mind. After the water had long-since run cold, he finally crawled out of the shower, dried himself off slowly, and stumbled his way to the bed to collapse, hopefully to not dream.
Manuel was sore, dazed, drained, and a little frightened as he turned the shower in his and Amanda's hotel room up to just-below-scalding. He couldn't seem to get his emotional footing, and only the dampener on his wrist let him keep any sort of handle on his own spinning mind. ~Jesus, what a night.~ he said to himself in Castillian as he peeled himself out of his mostly-destroyed suit. ~I didn't know I could _do_ that.~
Amanda was curled in a boneless heap on the bed, trying to work up the mental energy to either peel off her stained dress and boots so she could sleep properly, or do a healing spell to take care of the bruises and chafing that were making themselves felt. Or, failing that, stumbling into the shower once Manuel was done. "Fuck," she said aloud to the ceiling. It seemed to sum up the night.
"No thank you." he called out from the bathroom. "I don't think I"ll be able to for a good long while. That woman is an animal! Pure animal!" he said, with a grin at the things she did to him. "Join me?"
"Any other time I'd take that as an invite, but I'm too shagged t' even think of it." With a groan, Amanda rolled off the bed and stumbled into the bathroom, pausing only to toe off her already-loosened boots and pull her dress over her head. She'd been wearing underwear at the start of the night, but it had sort of gone missing at some stage. Joining Manuel in the large showerstall, she mustered a grin. "She is, ain't she? Definitely got you goin', I see. What the fuck was that?"
"I have no idea." he said, sliding under the fiery spray and hissing as the water hit tense muscles. "She unlocked me, and after that - it's all a blur. I just remember that I enjoyed it, a helluva lot more than I've enjoyed anything else I've done. And it seems that I mindlocked the entire club as well, judging by what I saw when I finally drove her over the edge she wanted from me."
"I'll say you did - it was a fuckin' orgy out there. I ain't never seen anythin' like it. Or felt it." To distract herself from the vague feelings of disquiet, Amanda grabbed the soap and ran it over Manuel's back. "It was... intense."
Manuel cooed in pleasure as Amanda washed his back. "Intense isn't the word. I have _never_ felt anything like that before. Nothing." Although he had his back to Amanda, the tilt of his shoulders and the choked sounds he made couldn't have been a good sign. "What have I done?"
"I... don't know. What was comin' down the link nearly blew me head off, an' then... " Amanda's hands faltered even as her words did, and she bowed her head under the spray, letting the water soothe her jangled nerves. She slipped her arms around Manuel's waist, hugging him gently. "It was an accident," she said at last.
"Domino asked for it. That I don't mind." he grinned weakly. "But the rest - I raped them. They had no choice, and I forced it onto them." He leaned forward, letting the scalding hot water run over his back. "Was it an accident?"
"It is if you couldn't help it, if you didn't know that would happen." Flipping her wet hair out of her face with her hand, she set to soaping herself, wincing as she hit sensitive patches. "It ain't like the love potion - I knew what that could do an' still did it."
"There's so much I don't know..." he muttered, as he let the water soak his hair. "I'm not sure I'm going to be able to go out with the Pack anymore." he said. "What if they hold me responsible? And what about the police?"
"I don't know... I ain't got any answers this time, Manny." She nudged him around to face her and ran her soapy hands over his chest, noting the scratches and other marks. The movement gave her time to think. "It wouldn't be the first time they've seen someone lose control of their powers, so I don't think they'd be after you. An' as for the police... No-one knew exactly what happened, so it's not like they'd be lookin' for you."
"What kind of a _monster_ does that to somebody?" he asked, voice close to breaking. "Apparently, I'm that kind of monster. How can they look me in the eye, knowing what I've done? How can _YOU_? Maybe I should turn myself in, go back to the aslyum..."
"You didn't _mean_ it!" she told him, dropping the soap and grabbing onto his arms. "You didn't go there tonight an' decide t' mindfuck a bunch of strangers for the fun of it. People lose control of their powers all the fuckin' time - half the bloody school has, for Christ's sake." It was hard to maintain her vehemence with water pouring down over the two of them, but she blinked it out of her eyes and met his. "You ain't a monster, Manny. Believe me, I'd fuckin' well know."
"No, I didn't mean it. I didn't want for that to happen. I got caught up in all the hate from Lien, and then Domino and her need, and she unlocked me, and then ... boom." he joked weakly, taking the soap from her hand to begin to clean himself off. "What is Lien's damage, anyway? Did I do something to her? She _hated_ me, Amanda. I don't understand. I'd never seen her before we came here. What did I do?"
"You were born with a dick," Amanda said bluntly, stepping back and letting the water rinse her off. "It weren't personal, she was probably feelin' the same thing 'bout the
Manuel ahhhed. "So that's what it was. Do you know what it's like, hating yourself from your own biology? Hating your gender? Thanks to Lien, I know what it's like." he said bitterly, rinsing his abused slender body off under the hot water.
"I was gettin' it from the link. I s'pose there's some people you just shouldn't be in the same room with." With a small groan as various aches and pains started making themselves more felt, Amanda stepped out of the shower and wrapped herself in one of the hotel's big fluffy white towels. "'M not sayin' I didn't enjoy that, but... ow."
"I enjoyed it highly as well. Domino is ... quite spirited, and she reacts even better than you do. It was amazing." he said, trying to dredge up some cheerfulness out of the bottom of his heart. "I'm gonna be in here for a little while - don't wait up. Tomorrow, we'll go see the rest of the sights." he said, returning himself to the scalding spray of the anemic hotel shower.
"Believe me, I weren't plannin' to," Amanda muttered, barely drying herself off before stumbling back into the bedroom and the inviting expanse of the bed. If she was picking up Manuel's emotional state from the link, she was too exhausted to care.
Manuel showered for a half-hour, trying to wash the stain of his crimes off of his body and mind. After the water had long-since run cold, he finally crawled out of the shower, dried himself off slowly, and stumbled his way to the bed to collapse, hopefully to not dream.
