Silly little comforting log.

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Paige: *paces the room, hands subtly clenching and unclenching at her sides as her tea gets cooler by the minute*

Alison: If I get dizzy and throw up, it'll be all your fault. *sips tea calmly*

Paige: *stops, gripping the back of her chair instead* I'm trying my best, Alison.

Alison: *nods, hands framing the mug of tea, concentrating on the soothing warmth of it, and the sweet smell of vanilla* I can appreciate that. Do me a favor and sit down anyway, hon?

Paige: *sits, wrapping her fingers around her own tea and trying to still her mind*

Alison: *hums under her breath idly - a lullaby her nanny used to sing, in Spanish*

Paige: *gives Alison an amused look tinged with thanks*

Alison: *grins faintly as she sings through the lullaby, glad that the one fallback she always uses to calm herself is appreciated*

Paige: *sets her cup down and closes her eyes, willing herself still and obviously not succeeding very well*

Alison: *is finding comfort in the small victories - in this case, getting Paige to sit down at least* Well. Is there anything you'd like to ask me, now?

Paige: It'd be rude to ask what I would like to as I already have and you have already answered.

Alison: I came down here for a reason. I just felt a tad bit uncomfortable answering... in details, that publicly, I guess. And I do want to allow Jono his privacy. But I'll answer what I can, hon.

Paige: *opens her eyes, actual fear behind the brave face* Is he all right?

Alison: Yes. Physically, as he was before. Mentally - I don't know yet. *pauses and considers, then goes on, knowing the other music students saw enough to already deduce this* Whatever happened, it triggered a pretty big panic attack.

Paige: *nods, and remains silent for a very long while* Do you know what happened? Do I want to know what happened?

Alison: I know what happened. I'm not sure why. Panic attacks are vicious things. I used to have a fair bit myself for a while when I- well. He lost control. *she looks ahead for a moment, remembering when that happened to her, a while ago* I know no one was hurt. I know he'll probably blame himself for it anyway. I hope he'll give himself a chance to move beyond that.

Paige: Okay. Thank you.

Alison: *nods quietly* You're welcome. *tilts head* He won't be ignored, you know. I'll... keep an eye on him. Best as I can. Others will too.

Paige: Yes, of course. He'll be fine and well taken care of. *turns her look out the window*

Alison: No. He won't be "fine". I don't know if he ever will be, what most people consider fine. *shrugs faintly*

Paige: He's fine to- Yes, of course. But he won't be ignored, as you said. Perhaps now someone will start paying attention to him. *tries to look cheery about this as best she can*

Alison: *raises eyebrow, and gives her a calm look as she takes another sip of mug*

Paige: *smiles* If you have a question, ask it Alison.

Alison: Not a question. Just worried about you, as well.

Paige: Why ever would you worry about me? I'm fine. *turns her look back to Alison, eyes dark in an otherwise smiling face*

Alison: *snorts* Yeah. Just because we're normal looking and well-adjusted, life is hunky dory for us, mmm?

Paige: Unlike some, Alison, I have no melodrama to deal with. The biggest of my concerns is if I can do the extra credit assignment in Chemistry to boost my mark up to a perfect mark. So yes, I'm fine. There is no reason for me not to be.

Alison: Mmm. *leans back* If you say so. *takes a sip of her tea, looking out window*

Paige: *lets out a sigh of angry air* All right, Alison, I’ll play. I'm NOT fine. But there is nothing I can do about, now is there? Besides, it's my job to be the happy one, there are so few of my kind around these days.

Alison: You can't be happy for everyone, hon. Especially if you're not happy yourself. It'll just wear you out until you don't even know- *she stops, and takes a deep breath* until you don't even know why you should be happy anymore.

Paige: *stares at Alison evenly* If there is nothing I can do about it, there is no point. By pretending to be happy -- which is not entirely what I'm doing anyway, it's more of a not acknowledging that there's something wrong since I can't fix it anyway -- I'm at least letting everyone else be the same. But thank you for your concern.

Alison: *closes her eyes for a moment, then just nods*

Paige: *smiles again, sipping at her now lukewarm tea* Good then.

Alison: *refrains from saying No to that and hates that there are some things one cannot change or fix for others* Mmm. You'll let me know, if Jono speaks to you? Not the details. Just the... communicating?

Paige: *smile falters somewhat* You'll be waiting a very long while. It would probably be best to ask someone he is closer to, but if you'd like.

Alison: *looks at her tea* No. This is good. *will return the favor as well, whether Paige asks or not*

Paige: *doesn't have anything to reply to that and so adds more hot water to her mug* If you wish. *she replies after a little while, smile still present*

Alison: *grins at her over the tea* Yes.