[email to Bobby]

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to: <blue eyes>
from: <em>
subject: That growing up thing.

I evidently haven't edited my nicknames on this computer in way too long. Oops. Too lazy right now. Besides, that's not as appalling cute as the one you used to have on here.

Look, I know we haven't talked in a long time, but since we're both on staff now and we're supposed to be grown up and all, I thought maybe we could give it a try. I miss being friends, Bobby. I know you have other people to rely on now and if you don't want to be friends again, I guess I'll deal with that. I've tried to give you your space and time but if we're going to be living and working here for now I want to clear the air and start with a clean slate, even just as acquaintances. Maybe we could go out and get coffee somewhere, get out of the house for a while, and try?

If you'd rather not, no hard feelings, but this is really last call here. Take it or leave it. I won't offer again. That might be a relief for you, I don't know.

Marie

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Subject: Re: That growing up thing.

Well, it has nothing to do with being a grown up (cuz I'm not one, no matter what my students are led to believe!), but I'd like to try, too. You can never have too many friends, right? And you were always a good one to have. Coffee sounds like a good place to start, just name the day.

Thanks, Marie. I'm sure it wasn't easy to send this email. God knows I wouldn't have dared. I know I haven't exactly been the most approachable person lately, and I apologize. I guess what I'm trying to say is, thank you for not giving up on me.

Miss you,
Bobby

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to: <blue eyes>
from: <em>
subject: Miss you too.

I do. And I'm not giving up on you, even if I stopped trying to get you to be friends, I wouldn't give up on you. You were damn good to me, Bobby, and you made being here okay when I was scared and lonely. You made me laugh and you made me feel good about myself. You were an amazing boyfriend and I know you gave me the best of you. I never expected it to last, you know. I always believed that you deserved way better than anything I had to give you. It ended so badly, it nearly killed me, but that doesn't change the fact that we have all that great history and that I know you're a good person. At the end of the day, I still just miss my friend.

Love,
Marie

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To: <marie>
From: <bobby>
Subject: Re: Miss you too.

I'm glad you think so, Em. Although I disagree, especially on what I deserved. I was damn lucky to have you, and I took it for granted. I'm sorry for how it ended, more sorry than I can ever say, or even hope to make up for, but if you're willing to start over from here, so'm I. You're a good person too, you know. Whether you think so or not.

So when do you want to get that coffee?

Love,
Bobby

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to: <blue eyes>
from: <em>
subject: Notadate

Let's make it this week, for sure. Thursday? What time are you up in the mornings? I'm up at oh-fuck-thirty every morning to run and train, and then I'm free for a while. Or we could do lunch.

Love,
Em