Log: Kurt and Sarah, Friday afternoon

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After a rigorous fencing lesson with Kurt, Sarah steels herself and brings up an important topic that's been on her mind lately.


Sweating profusely, Sarah went over to a nearby bench and picked up the towel she'd left there. She always worked up a good sweat from Kurt's fencing lessons, which to her was a sign of a good workout. Today had been no exception and she'd really felt good about her progress since starting the lessons with her teacher.

There was a bottle of water next to the towel, which she picked up and opened once she'd dried off and laid the towel back down. Taking a sip, she looked over at her instructor and wondered how best to start the conversation she'd been saving for after their lesson. The sip became a long, extended one as she thought about what to say, and then when something came to her she lowered the bottle and cleared her throat.

"So, um, Mr. Sefton, can I... can I ask you something, please?" That seemed as good of a way to start off as any.

Kurt tilted his head at her, setting down his own water bottle, then nodded. "Of course, Sarah. It is what we are here for."

"Oh, ok, good." That was the easy part. "It's kinda of a... a personal thing, though. About... relationships. Liking people." She kept her eyes mostly fixed on the top of the water bottle, though every now and then she peered up at Kurt, trying to gauge his reaction.

"...well, I can certainly try", he said after a moment. "Though I do have to admit to not having so much experience in that area."

"'k." That was all she could ask for, after all. Clearing her throat again, she continued. "Well, you know how... how sometimes boys like girls, or girls like boys, right? And... and sometimes boys can like, uh, other boys sometimes. Just like girls can sometimes like, you know. Other... girls? Sometimes?" Sarah raised an eyebrow, pausing to see if he was following her. She really, really hoped he was, even if she realized she'd overused the word 'sometimes' a lot, since she wasn't quite sure how else to put it.

"...ah." He walked over to her, gesturing to the bench. "Sit down, we will talk. You are saying you find you like another girl?"

Moving the bottle of water and the towel aside, Sarah sat down on the bench, managing a weak smile as she did so. "Thank you. I... yeah, I do." Saying that she liked Layla was a pretty big understatement, actually, but she didn't want to coo and fawn all over the other girl in front of Kurt. "And... well, I guess it's kinda new to me? Not so much liking this person, we've been great friends for ages, but the whole... romantic side of it, I guess. I hadn't really thought about it before and I'm trying to wrap my head around it now."

"Is the part that is confusing you that she is a girl, or that you like anyone at all?", he asked gently, taking his own seat next to her.

"Well, not that I like anyone at all, I'm pretty... unconfused at that. If that's a word." She chuckled a bit, then played with the water bottle in her hand a little. "And... I suppose it's because she's a girl. Not that that's a bad thing, it just wasn't something I'd thought about, you know? Because, well, what if I like boys too? Or maybe it's both, or maybe... I don't know. That's the problem I guess."

"I think what you should be focusing on, perhaps, is not whether you like girls or boys, but the fact that you like her", Kurt said after giving it some thought. "Take things with her as they come, not overthinking it. If the time comes that things end with her, then perhaps the next person you like will be a boy, or perhaps not. After all, if you are with her, then you are with her."

"I am with her, it's true." Sarah frowned and mulled that over for a bit. "I mean, I do wonder about whether I just like girls or if I like both or whatever but... but you're right, I mean, I don't want to go out and test that or anything." There were no plans to just grab a random dude and kiss him just to see what her reaction may or may not be, after all. "Yeah, you're right, I should just go with it and see." There was definitely nothing wrong with that in her mind, she quite enjoyed her time with Layla.

"You will have the rest of your life to work that out", he said lightly. "And even if she is the first girl you have felt anything for, your age is just when things can change and develop."

The rest of her life sounded like an awful long time, though Kurt was right. "Yeah... yeah, you're right." She smiled, a little easier now as she started to wrap her head around the idea. "I mean, I don't want things between us to change, of course, but I don't have to worry about working everything out right now." That was what she was taking out of his message, anyway.

"Of course not." He smiled back. "The one most important thing is that you must never - never, Sarah - let anyone tell you who you can or cannot like or be with. Not for any reason."

Listening intently to her mentor as he emphasized the importance of what he was about to say next, Sarah nodded emphatically at his statement. "Oh no, never, gotcha, Mr. Sefton." She hadn't really thought about that, that people may say she was wrong or mistaken to have feelings for Layla, but that was never going to make her change her mind. Which reminded her she'd have to talk to her parents and sister at some point, and oh boy, maybe her grandparents, but they'd all understand, right?

That was another matter for another time, though, and for now she just took comfort in her professor's acceptance and kind words. "Thank you so much, sir." She smiled and gave him a quick hug, hopefully that was alright.

"You are very welcome." He gave her a quick hug in return before stepping back. "And if ever you need to talk again - including telling me who your mystery girl is when you are ready - I will always be here."

"I will definitely remember that, thank you again." She blushed a little at the mention of the mystery girl, realizing that she hadn't actually said for whom it was she had feelings. Knowing how well Layla liked Kurt, she figured that it might be best to let her tell him, if she wanted. It was kinda complicated and she wasn't sure who she should tell and when, so she'd just leave that decision up to Layla. "I should go and get cleaned up though, I guess." Before she went and tracked down the blonde girl, speak of the devil. "I will see you later, Mr. Sefton!" She scooped up her water and towel and waved at him before turning away to head back to her room.