Emails to Angelo and Shinobi

[xp_daytripper]

To: Espinosa, Angelo
From: Sefton, Amanda



Mate, I just caught what went on in Manuel's journal. What the fuck's going on? Manny sounds like... well, like me that night on the roof, and I know it ain't the link 'cause that's gone. And you wouldn't be so pissed off at him unless something happened. I've been in his head sort of and know where he's coming from, maybe I can help?

A.



To: Shaw, Shinobi
From: Sefton, Amanda



This block on email and comments to Manuel is really starting to piss me off...

Is he all right? I've only just gotten at the journals - Rom's stepped up the training - and he sounds bad. Bad enough to scare me. I know he's fucked people over, but he ain't the evil bastard people are making him out to be. And I'm worried that it's my fault, something left over from the link. He sounds so much like what was happening in me head before I tried to take a header off the roof that it's scaring the fuck out of me.

I'm pretty sure I'll be back by next week. Tell him to hang on. I don't know if me being there will help, but I can't not try, and if people have a problem with it, fuck 'em.

A.

Comments

Re: Manuel

[x-shinobi.livejournal.com]

Was just about to write you, luv.

He's.. pretty bad, I won't lie to you. He's half-starved, and.. just a hell of a mess. I don't think it's your fault, though, poppet.. possibly, possibly contributing a little, but frankly, he'd be this fucked up whether the link had happened or not. It's as much my fault as anybody else's that he's in such bad shape. The others are being fucking hypocrites, but Moira, Marie and I are watching out for him. We won't let him hurt himself, Amanda, I promise you.

I'll tell him. I think reminding him that you don't hate him might help. I'll tell him now.

-Shinobi

Re: Re: Manuel

[xp_daytripper]

Thanks for telling me, mate. It freaked me out a bit, reading that in his journal. Brought back some stuff that I was happier not thinking about. But it's better, knowing he's got someone looking out for him. He seemed so alone, and I know he scares people.

I should be scared of him meself, but I ain't. He worries me, and sometimes he pisses me off and he drives me bonkers, but he don't scare me. I can't tell you why that is.

*sighs* I know a lot of his problems ain't my fault, but I can't help but think the link did more harm than good. It was an accident, but we should have said something. He was relying on me to cope with things, as much as I was him, and now it's gone and I'm over here he's got nothing to fall back on, and I know how hard it is giving up something that made you feel good about things.

Take care of yourself, mate. Don't take on too much - get some help when you need it. Tho' Sarah will probably make sure you don't run yourself into the ground.

A.

[x-skin.livejournal.com]

Amanda,

A lot's happened - but most of it's not mine to tell. Basically, one of my good friends who's already pretty fucked up because of something I can't talk about until he does - well, there was an incident with Manuel that's made it all worse.

I didn't sleep Tuesday night (which isn't Manuel's fault, I know), and nor did my friend (which does have something to do with Manuel). So I was on a pretty short fuse yesterday. I've talked to Marie about it.

Angelo

Subject: Fuck

[xp_daytripper]

Ange,

Thanks for telling me. I didn't want to sound like I was blaming you, but what Manuel said in his journal, it reminded me of what happened to me, and it scared the fuck out of me. And Manny doesn't have the friends I did, so if he decides to do something stupid, I ain't sure there will be someone there to stop it.

But if anything does happen, it ain't your fault. Manny's fucked up beyond belief, and the worst thing is he doesn't even realise it most of the time. Having his powers taken away means he gets to feel for himself for the first time since he got them, and there's stuff there he don't want to feel. The link went both ways - I felt what he did, too, and it's hard to hate someone when you now how scared and alone they are. But he's also an obnoxious arsehole who thinks he's better than everyone, and he can be a shit without even knowing it. Or caring. And that's the part people can't deal with, the not caring. But he doesn't know how, worse than me. Least I had the healing thing to help me realise other people feel too, but he's been taught to use his power to hurt others or help himself.

I understand about keeping other people's secrets. There's stuff he's done to someone that I know about and want to tell, but they won't let me, and I ain't sure it will help them if I do or not. And I think it's gone too far now for me to say anything.

Don't let this get to you, okay? It ain't your fault Manny's the way he is, and he can be a fucking drama queen. Don't let him drive you away from the school, neither. It's your safe place, same as it is mine, and you shouldn't feel you can't stay. If things get to bad, talk to someone, okay?

A.